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Very tired.

I got home around 10pm... played a bit of City of Heroes before the 'falling asleep' thing got to me.

When I got to the bedroom, Faux Paw was sitting next to my side of the bed, so I tried to give her the pill (and promised her I would get the heart meds!) but she wouldn't take it, and as I snuggled her she started panting for breath again, and she felt really cold.

So I took her in to Dove Lewis Emergency Pet Hospital in Portland. It was about 3AM. I had a hard time finding the place, as usual. Must remember, "Pettygrove", "Pet E Grove" ... and 20th street.

She had about 80ml of fluid built up again, and was dehydrated, and very cold - only 97 degrees (Penny's usual body temperature) and cats are supposed to be around 103.

They put her in a special warming bed, feeding her intravenous fluids (and food) and I left, planning to return by 8am to take her to our local vet. It was about 4:45 and by the time I got to the Tanasbourne shopping center, I was hungry and Safeway was closed, so I went to Shari's Restaurant and got a breakfast thing. For no reason, around 5:40, I called my home phone to retrieve messages.

She'd had a cardiac arrest five minutes earlier, and they had done stuff to keep her going, so I paid and tore back into town, getting there after about 20 minutes. She had stopped breathing on her own, but her heart was beating. I could barely 'feel' her in there ... she was very tired, and the doctor said she would not survive being taken off the breathing. I asked them to give her something to ease her passing.

So, around 6:30, Penny's personal best cat went across the Rainbow Bridge to join her.

They told me what was wrong. The fluid around her lungs was full of cancer cells. Our poor kitty had cancer too.

I am very tired of my family dying, and I really hate cancer.

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erikred
Jan. 20th, 2006 04:15 pm (UTC)
Man, I'm sorry about Faux Paw. I think you're right; Penny needed her animal guide to get her across Bifrost.

Now go back to sleep. Seriously. Elevate your feet, lie back, and just sleep.
snobahr
Jan. 20th, 2006 05:08 pm (UTC)
Hugs to you, and the rest of your feline contingent. Midnight had cancer throughout her body by the time we found it, and we basically just made her as comfortable as possible for her last days. When she gave us The Look, we took her back to the vet to end her pain.
dalbino83
Jan. 20th, 2006 07:06 pm (UTC)
Such terrible losses for you, Steve. Penny may have company on the Rainbow Bridge, but they aren't with you. I hope you have lots of other friends holding you close right now.
foomf
Jan. 21st, 2006 06:38 am (UTC)
Somehow, Faux Paw going to be with Penny didn't hurt as much as when Savoir Furr went from kidney failure last year.

I think, mostly, because Faux Paw really WANTED to be with Penny. It felt very right. I was sad when she went because of the pain she felt, and her fear and loneliness over the past week.
staxxy
Jan. 20th, 2006 08:24 pm (UTC)
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I am glad for Penny that she has her kitty, and that her kitty hung on until she had passed.
(Anonymous)
Jan. 20th, 2006 09:44 pm (UTC)
Hey Steve, I never dropped by to express my sympathies. (Actually, until drath told me, I didn't even know that foomf = Steve).

I know I only met you and Penny the one time in person, about ten years ago, but it was a very nice time and a happy memory. I'm very sorry to hear that she passed away, and I'm even more sorry to hear the pain compounded by the loss of her cherished pet as well.

Hang in there, Steve, and add me to the list of people whose thoughts are with you at this difficult time.
foomf
Jan. 21st, 2006 06:41 am (UTC)
You didn't know it was me? Really?

Dude, you gotta look at the personal info pages ;)
(Anonymous)
Jan. 20th, 2006 09:46 pm (UTC)
Er, that previous comment was from Raptavio. I don't know why I was logged out. Sorry.
foomf
Jan. 21st, 2006 03:06 am (UTC)
I think LJ did something weird. I was logged out too, when I connected.
kjc
Jan. 22nd, 2006 08:31 am (UTC)
"Rough week" doesn't even begin to cover it, Hutch.

My sympathies,
Kelly J.
liralen
Jan. 23rd, 2006 07:59 pm (UTC)
*hugs* and much sorrow for your family losses.

And a big yes from this corner to "I really hate cancer." Totally. Absolutely.

You also have the prayers of the First Congregational UCC with you and your this week. God be with you.

I hope you can get some rest now and can take care of yourself.
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