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week 24

About a 1 or 2 on the emotional pain index, and very blah about everything.

Nothing really new today. I went to see Superman Returns, and during the movie, a couple of times, found that my eyes were leaking quietly, as some memory of our first time with the first movie would slice across my awareness.
At the same time, even though it was a stabby, cutty sort of feeling, I also remembered the simple pleasure of going out to a film with her.

So, 24 weeks later. It's very close to six months - another two weeks.
She always claimed I'd be over her in six months, but I'm not. Hah! You weren't always right, Long.

I have a pretty frantic day lined up tomorrow, and I need to get to work bloody early for a change if I plan to accomplish them. I have to prepare and pack clothes. I might find myself just buying some new tee shirts and shorts, since most of my shorts don't fit well, and Redding is going to be stinking-hot again by the time I get there.

I'll need to go to the Roths and get the painting of the chinese dancers out of their storage building. They expect me in the afternoon or evening. There may be one or two other things there that I'll want. I am hoping that nothing has gotten damaged, but if so, it's only things.
Jac wants the charm-bracelet, and I want to take a violin to Jamie and I don't know what Pat wants, if anything. I don't have that much room in the relatively-tiny Prius. I love my mileage but it is really not big.
Also, I'm pretty sure I want to give the Unicorn sculpture that Penny had made years ago, to Samantha, but I'll ask her to tell me tonight and if I know by morning, then I'll do it.

Casey still hasn't come to get his computer, so I don't have room yet to set up some stuff. I should just move things around a bit, and set things up a little smarter, and use the couch for now, get a decent suspension arm for the LCD display. I need to replace the PC case, as the power supply is crotchety and I may want to upgrade my video card, and use the current one in the 'media PC' that my hubris is convincing me to make. At some point, first, I replace the television with something more robust.

Yeah, I'm talking around it. I'm really lonely lately, but I can't do anything about it. Friends are excessively busy, my work and sleep schedule are f*ed so that I'm not really able to socialize. I'm a month overdue for a haircut and I look sloppy. Maybe tomorrow? Well, is scheduled. We'll see how it turns out. Going to the place Penny made me start at a few years back.

Howl. Miss you, love.


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Jun. 30th, 2006 05:26 am (UTC)
Good friends of Mom and Dad told us that you, or at least they, never do "get over" losing your wife or husband. You just deal with it in different ways. That's always seemed to me a better approach to the whole thing.

By the way, you're still in the Portland area, right? If so, let me recommend the Hollywood Barber Shop, on, um 39th I think it is, just off Sandy. Very old school outfit, that served Dad and me very well all the years we lived there. And when Dad was in the hospital and then in hospice, the owner made trips out to cut his hair and beard there. Good folks.
Jun. 30th, 2006 11:45 pm (UTC)
If you are bringing the painting, you can undo the staples from the back holding the canvas, and disassemble the whole thing: roll up the canvas and stack the boards and tie them. If you want.
Jun. 30th, 2006 11:54 pm (UTC)
That might work. Somewhere, I may be able to find the source page, if you wanted to finish the painting.

(And may the hack who killed her love for painting spend his first eternity in the world of paintings of framework see-through bottles with all the openings painted in different shades of bland colors with no two colors touching the same hue... like the crap he seemed to think was Ahhht.)
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